I told you about the YouTube challenge I’ve been participating in that includes strength training and a specific meal plan. Well, it ended on March 28th. I will be submitting before and after pictures, which I don’t think I’ll share here, and I need to make a video that answers the question: how have I transformed? To help me collect my thoughts, I’m going to answer that question here.

First of all, I’d like to say that changes have been made, but I see this as just the beginning. I will continue to take care of my body, by God’s grace, one day at a time. I may have seen more dramatic results if I had pushed myself to increase the weights more quickly, but I was afraid of injuring myself. I increased the weights very gradually, and will continue to do so. Slow and steady is how I roll.

Let’s start with the most obvious change. I’ve changed physically. I’ve lost 10.4 pounds. I’ve lost 3 inches on my waist, 2 inches on my chest, and 2 1/2 inches on my hips. My clothes fit better, I feel stronger, I’m more flexible and have better mobility, and my posture has improved. This is a big one for me. I’ve had six babies, though I had 11 pregnancies, which takes a toll on your body I think. I nursed for about 14 years. I was usually hunched over and my abdominal muscles were very weak because I rarely exercised. Standing up straight took a great deal of effort, but not anymore… I also think I’m probably healthier on the inside, although I don’t have evidence of this.

When I saw the before pictures side by side with the after pictures, I felt sorry for the old me. She didn’t think she looked that bad. She was kind of in denial about the rut she was in. Yeah, I could rationalize that I was smaller than “most people” my age. And I could make myself look thin by the outfits I would wear. But I was hiding a secret that only God knew. I didn’t think I was important enough to make the time and effort to take care of myself physically. I didn’t think I was worth it. I was stuck in the cycle of using food for pleasure, or comfort, or to avoid feelings. I didn’t have the confidence that I could stop the cycle and I wasn’t respecting myself.

I did not want to look at any of this until recently. I’ve been praying throughout this whole challenge that I may do the work, and that the results are up to God. I’ve literally been praying to finish a set and thanking him when I finish it. And it’s been working! So, this challenge has increased my faith and my hope and my gratitude. This really has been an amazing Lent. I’ve seen again what God can do when I ask for help.

Have a wonderful Easter Season!