My second son will be graduating from high school soon. While gathering up photos to use in a slideshow I’m making for him, I visited an old blog, called My Thoughtful Spot, that I kept from 2006-2010. I really enjoyed reading some of my posts. I was funny back then. I know I had more time to write, because I wrote while I was nursing babies, which was… all the time. It got me thinking that I’d like to write like that again. (It was basically an online journal.) I wonder if I can make time for it now.
My life has changed so much since those days. Or maybe I have changed. The old me was very hopeful, grateful, and enthusiastic about parenting, home management, homeschooling, organizing, decluttering, and simplifying, even though I am sure she was tired from the pregnancies, nursing, waking during the night, and caring for babies, toddlers, and young children.
I am different now. I feel like I am in some kind of transition period. Maybe it’s a new season of life. I feel like I don’t have any experience with it, yet in a way I do. My children are 20, 18, 16, 13, 10 and 8. Although I’ve never had a 20 year old before, I have been 20. And even though I’ve already been a mom to children of the other ages, I know I can’t be the same parent I was before. Will they be getting the new and improved version? The older and wiser me? I sure hope so. And I hope writing here will help me to not take myself so seriously.